Dreaming of...Toilets?

For the longest time, I've had some extremely weird and vivid dreams. I can remember them like they actually happened too. It's very strange. Allyn doesn't ever remember his dreams, so I guess I'm not sure if I'm the weird one, or he is. haha. I don't really have much to compare myself to though.

There are several dreams I remember having when I was a little kid. One of them I was in my grandma's camper and all the furniture in there started attacking me. Another dream I was on an alien spaceship walking around and I walked into a room where aliens were operating on my grandpa. Once they saw me they started chasing me. Like I said, very weird.

One of my 'teenage' dreams I remember extremely vividly was me driving up Grand Dad's Bluff in La Crosse when all of the sudden I had to swerve from hitting a deer. I was driving a gray Oldsmobile...a very old one at that. Then I saw myself flying off the cliff towards my death and just before I was supposed to hit the ground I woke up. Scariest part about that is I didn't own that car yet. I ended up buying that exact car a year or so later. Once I realized that, lets just say I never went up that bluff in that car!

I also have had weird dreams of me riding my bike in nothing but a bikini bottom...and I wasn't the only one doing this. It was like everyone in the world lost their tops. The neighborhood we were all riding in was one that's in my hometown, Holmen, but it was like an earthquake happened there and everything seemed dark and broken.

My most reoccurring dream though is extremely weird. My dream will start off with me doing something totally normal like talking with friends, working out, walking around, then all of the sudden I see 1, or sometimes many, toilets just sitting in the middle of a room. No stalls around them like in a public restroom, no walls, nothing. What do I do? I flippin' use it. In front of people. Like it's no big deal. No one around me seems to think it's a big deal either! In my head I think, 'wow this is kind of embarrassing, I should probably stop' - but I don't! How weird is that?? I've been told that probably means I have to go to the bathroom, but I'll wake up and I have no urge at all to go. I wish I knew what this weird dream meant because I have it all the time. If anyone knows, please feel free to tell me because quite frankly, I'm lost!

On another note, hopefully I'll be able to blog more often pretty soon. Zander is starting to become a little better with keeping himself entertained. Yay! I'm looking forward to him becoming just a tad more independent. I know he's only getting upset while I blog because he's bored...or because Corvin got jealous of the toy he was playing with and took it. Oh children....haha

Talk to you all soon!
♥ Taber

I know I haven't been posting many photos lately! Bad me :( but I have been practicing my editing skills! I took a class and if you ask me, CRAVE mentoring certainly paid off! I'm very happy with how this entire session turned out! :)

Motivation Has Escaped Me

I have a bit of a confession.

When I get stressed and overwhelmed, I do one of three things.

1) Get mad and yell.

2) Cry

3) Ignore all things making me stressed out/feeling overwhelmed.

I've definitely hit number 3 over the past month. Current things on my list of stresses:

1) Wedding planning

2) Trying to lose weight

3) Very needy children

4) Cooking, cleaning, other miscellaneous housework

5) Keeping up with a daily blog

6) Photography

Over the last few weeks, I've definitely backed away from several of my stresses. You all have probably noticed I'm not really keeping up with the blog so well, haha. My wedding and my kids are pretty much the only things getting too much attention right now. Photography is an on again off again stresser, depends on how many shoots I've been doing. I obviously still cook, but I'm doing a lot of lazy meals and Allyn has been the one doing the dishes lately. I kind of feel bad about that :/ I've even lost a lot of motivation to lose weight. Since I've hit 129 it's like I don't seem to care as much. I know I still do. I still want to get rid of all the post baby weight (only 10-11 more pounds to go!) but my Zumba Wii disk isn't working and....well I'm just making a stupid excuse at this point.

I feel like I need something to motivate myself again but I don't know what. I know the thought of all the stress is keeping me from getting everything done but I don't know what to do to get over that. Ugh. 

Hopefully I find my 'get r done' attitude again soon because I'm kind of on a time crunch here! Which is also stressing me out! Ahh! Anyone wanna come down to Peoria for a week and be my nanny so I can get things done? We'll feed you! :) haha

Anyway, I'm going to attempt to workout...my ondemand channel has some pretty intense kickboxing workouts I can do to kick this box back into action.

Talk to you all as soon as my life will allow me! 

♥ Taber

So Much To Do!

Bad me - it's been QUITE a while since my last post. Sorry!

I'll try to be a bit more on top of this again! It'll be much easier now that I've got a few tricks up my sleeve for keeping Zander calm and Corvin occupied. Zander is officially smitten with his mobile. He used to not care about it, now he loves it. Yay! That thing will run for about 10 minutes before I have to go and turn it back on. Corvin stays in the room with him and basically watches him. He's such a good big brother!

Anyway, I don't think I've blogged about my big news! Maybe I have...but I don't really remember (hey it's been a while! Give me a break!). Well, have you heard of the show Bridezillas on WE TV? If you haven't, feel free to youtube it or to go to WE TV's website to check it out. Turns out they're interested in me! Very cool! I've done a phone interview, a written questionnaire (that was 12 pages long!) and we've done an on camera interview. They also sent us a TON of forms yesterday to sign and send back A.S.A.P. Sounds like we're pretty darn close to being picked if you ask me!

JUST TO CLEAR THINGS UP HERE....
Allyn and I have decided to do this NOT for 15 minutes of fame or anything lame like that, but for the fact that they do pay us to do it. Will I be acting? I'd like to call it guided reality. haha. So just for all you people out there that are wondering why in the world we would decide to be on a show like Bridezillas, that's why. Plus, we didn't have a videographer and now we have a free one...actually we have one that's paying us! ;)

More Wedding News: We've also finally got our invites sent out (if you're reading this, and I invited you, RSVP ASAP!), we've booked our DJ and decided we're only going to get a wedding cake for the wedding party (in effort to save money...plus our meal plan comes with cheesecake so the guests will be satisfied in that department!). We've also ordered the bouquets, I had my first dress fitting and we've chosen a judge to marry us!

I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE GETTING MARRIED IN 2 1/2 MONTHS!!!

There's so much to do and so little time! Plus, our free month of rent was taken away (which we were relying on to pay for the remainder of the wedding expenses) so that's going to make things even harder. Light at the end of the tunnel? Allyn's been paying double insurance on his car, one through Farmers and one through his bank. Sounds bad but it turns out it's gonna be okay because the bank is willing to refund ALL the over paid money when they receive the proof of insurance that we've had over the past 9 months. That should cover our final expenses, but with the way things have been going lately, you never know. So I'm not going to get my hopes up until I have a check in my hands.

Anyway, Zander is no longer content and Corvin has exhausted his efforts on trying to give his brother some toys to make him happy. Time for this mama to get going!

Talk to you all tomorrow! (and I mean it this time! haha)

♥ Taber

Here's the timeline cover I created today! Well, I downloaded the template and added the pictures & words. That still counts, right? ;)